It was another 3 days before Sarah eventually released me. I can't say it was particularly good release, but it was a release. I had intended to ask Sarah for permission to cum but when I felt her climax I was unable to contain myself. I did my best to hold back but all i managed to do was to stop myself from ejaculating fluid (or much fluid as there is always some), but when I checked the condom in the morning there was very little if anything in it. I guess I managed a ruined orgasm for myself which was deserved since I was not able to control myself.
Sarah did not turn the TV back on and promptly fell asleep which meant I was able to sleep the night without the cage on for the first time in 10 days and in the morning we had another chat, which was nice, although I was in trouble for something I had said the day before.She told me she did not care that I came without her permission....I wish she did care.
I asked Sarah if it would be OK if I cleared my pipes properly during my shower to which she gave me permission, again she does not really care what I do with myself...
I must admit it was surely satisfying to see the gobs of cum come out in torrents, I was a little worried because of the lack of fluid in the condom from the night before...so at least I knew there were no blockages. It was also a bit fortunitate that I was given the night out of the cage because there was a small wound on the underside from the KSD, nothing serious, but enough I decided to leave it off for the rest of the day and rub some vitamin E oil into it. By the end of the day it has subsided to just being a bit red.
I managed to abstained from further self manipulation all day and reapplied the cage prior to bed and so I have not had a orgasm without Sarah's knowledge since my commitment began.
These next few days will again be a challenge, I am coming up to my thirds day after my release and I can feel the pressure building again, and I know Sarah will be expecting her period in 5 or so days time. Sarah always feels pressured to release me prior to her period...and I also feel the most pressure to ask as well because I know that once started its going to be at least a week ON TOP of what I have already been locked for. I always start out determined this is OK but after 3-4 days in I start feeling stressed.
Sarah HAS been sleeping MUCH better though so I must keep this up. I intend to tell Sarah that I have no expectation of release before her period so as to alleviate any pressure she might feel, Of course there is a cavete....unless she wants too which regrettably is unlikely.
I will tell her that I will tell her if the pressure becomes too much for me and I may ask her for a "30 second handjob" which means basically I am to make my self ready without disturbing her while she watches TV....and roll on a condom as to not make any mess. I will bring myself right to the edge of orgasm and keep myself there until a advertisement whereby I will tell Sarah and she will give me 30 seconds of her time to take me over the edge, after which I will go and put the cage back on. Sarah has kind of agreed to this although I have yet to see if she will do it. But at least it offers some release without hardly any inconvenience and hence guilt on my part for asking her to go out of her way too much. After all if I do it right she will probably only have to barely touch it. Hopefully through doing this maybe she will learn to tease and deny which might make things a bit more interesting. I know I want it I am just not sure if I can handle it...I hope Sarah's PMT is not bad this month, when she starts going ballistic for no real good reason it makes it a whole lot harder to feel like this is worthwhile.
Stuck between a rock and a hard place.
Still I am hoping that by Sarah REALLY controlling every orgasm I learn to go longer inbetween and offering Sarah a chance to sleep and trust me, to feel comfortable with me hence become closer, maybe ultimately Sarah will want to engage with me more with sexual attention...be it intercourse or any other form of intimate play. I miss orgasms a lot, today I had lunch with a woman who is the friend of a work colleague, as I parked my car I thought about having some thoughts about her and felt myself fill up my cage, and then I realized that thats all it would be is a thought.
Jez I ramble
2 comments:
You're doing pretty well. However it seems like you are still doing almost all of the work in this trying to make it work. Sarah is either too lazy or unwilling to really and truly play with you.
Telling her about the 5 orgasms a day was a stroke of genius (pun intended!). It seemed to at least make her more open to the idea of the cage. But she still doesn't really want to play. Is it because she's just not all that into you?
I'm just thinking about my own situation and that's sort of the conclusion I reached. She's just not that into me anymore and playing with me sexually is totally foriegn.
D.
Hi Digger, your probably right, well she is not THAT into me although I do not think she is quite as indifferent as Arwyn, nearly but not quite. I read you still all the time, and I see sooo many similarities
She shows flickers of interest, and I get the occasional "i love you", and we do have sex about 3 times a month, although it looks like this cycle I am only going to get 2 :( and Sarah never tries to fake it, so I know when she does and when she doesn't get into it.
It was interesting when she let me out this time tho, for a while it looked like she wasn't going to get into it...and she told me I might have to go put the cage back on....so I was not going to be allowed to orgasm unless she was into it...fortunately we persevered a bit longer and her motor spluttered into life :)
Oh I am stuck in this fucken thing now for 3 months for sure. I guess its what I wanted to try out. If it works out it works out...if it does not work for me...but it does work for her...perhaps I can negotiate some more things I want to make it work for me....:)
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