Blowing on the latent dominant embers

The thing about developing a new dynamic in your relationship is the time scale is so long, and there are ups and there are downs.

Sarah did release me a week or so again, but it was all wrong, she released me because it had been about a week, and I knew she was not in the mood. I even told her I did not want her to release me because I knew she was not in the mood, even though I desperately needed a release.

In hindsight what I should have done is asked for a 30 second hand job, but Sarah was fairly insistent on giving it a go. But we did have a discussion about the cage, you see there are other stresses on us right now and I am not really sure if cage play is a good thing when there are too many other things going on in your life. I said to Sarah that it was not fair on her because I DO become more emotionally demanding on her, I do seek more attention from her, despite the benefits to her, which there is a disproportionate amount, there ARE additional, well different pressures placed on her. I suggested we might be better to leave the cage play again, this was the second time in as many weeks I had this discussion, but after the conversation when Sarah gave the keys, I handed them back to her saying, these are offered, but u do not need to take them. Sarah took them back.

The thing about Sarah is that she does not like foreplay, thats right fokes, most guys get in trouble for NOT enough foreplay, well Sarah will not let me anywhere near her pussy with my hands or mouth. The only thing I am allowed to rub her pussy with to get her in the mood is my hard penis, and sometimes because of the lack of tactile input on sarahs part that can be a real challenge. Of course after a week, or nearly a month now of continuous (save for the day release) getting hard once out of the cage is not really a issue.

This time I did not have any viagra, and truth is there was no need for it. I donned a non-latex condom. These are made from polyurethane and are far far better than latex condoms because they conduct HEAT. The problem is they are a bit too good...lol...Sarah did try hard to get her motor going, but the trouble is I was so hypertensive, and no matter how hard I tried to maintain control, I lost it, I tried to pull away but it was too late, I felt the climax coming and it just would not stop. I was so embarrassed, I had to tell Sarah because I knew I was not going to maintain my erection for long. Sarah was very good about it but I was really hard on myself, I was really upset. I suspect that in some respects Sarah was relieved because I don't think, although I will never know if she was going to manage to fireup, but alas I blew it..literally. I told Sarah I will have to invest in some desensitizing condoms....or at least I made a mental note to use a latex one next time!!

On waking up and showering I noticed that the keys were out of sight, so She had hidden them, which means a lock up for me again. I could not help thinking about our failed session though. I really hated myself for cumming before Sarah. I mean I offered to go down on her, or do anything for her, but I knew the answer to that before I even asked the question.

That evening after I had had my day of freedom, I was not quite so active, after wearing for 3 weeks one does not really feel quite so overly charged so the number of times I took advantage of my day release was only 3 or four times, less than half that of the previous release. In any case that night I took a hot drink to Sarah in bed, I noticed the keys sitting in her bedside draw that was open. I was annoyed yet I realized that at least she had put them out of immediate sight, the following morning they were gone.

Fast forward a week of endless massages and Sarah has developed a fetish for foot rubs as well. There has been a few instances of dominant titillation but nothing to write home about until last night.

In short I told Sarah that her pleasure was far more important than my own.
I gave Sarah the keyholders guide to chastity book, which I do not think she has opened.
In cleaning up I accidentally on purpose left a copy of "around her finger" out, I saw her eyes run over the title before I put it away, and I know she knows where it is. I have pulled a page partly out so I will know if the paper has been disturbed...lol

Well yesterday morning we had another discussion about things, Sarah during our morning massage, cuddle, that I love so much while caged, told me that she was going to have to let me out of THAT thing , and this ensued a conversation about if it worked for her or not. She said to me that "if you like wearing it then I have no problem with it", to which I laughed and said, well, no the part I like about wearing it is IF it does anything for us and if it takes some pressure off you, and again Sarah acquiesced that yes she does feel less pressure with it on then off. I think she is still struggling with "good girls would never do that", I think she likes it a lot more than she lets on.

Fast forward to bedtime, to which I was looking forward with great anticipation, its been 7 nights now, and on coming to bed Sarah tells me point blank that she can't find the keys.

What the %$#@, now I was mad, I know I shouldn't have been, but how the hell could she bloody loose them?? she has done this before and I was equally disturbed, I explained to Sarah (and I was containing myself) that if she TOLD me that she wasn't ready (which following the morning conversation there was an expectation) I would be fine, but I told her that in this instance that I was VERY upset that she could loose something as important as that.

Sarah quiped, thats ok darling if I can't find them tomorrow we will have to take you to the hospital and have them cut it off... hmmmm

I think she was kind of getting some sadistic joy out of this.

Anyways again I am far from perfect because I countered her sadistic pleasure by telling her that some bolt cutters would solve that, and I even went further saying that if she wanted me too I could probably break the lock open.

Well, the truth is Sarah did not want me too, she told me she wanted to find the keys in the morning, in other words she wants to wait till tomorrow. I must admit in the back of my mind I am worried because I know Sarah period is nearly upon us...eeeekkkkk

So to the dominant moment of the week. After watching her shows for a while with no further discussion, and I did behave myself, I let it drop, I said as she turned off the lights for sleep that she could let me lick her to a orgasm tonight and give me a 30 second handjob tomorrow, the thought of it had me hard in my cage, and I had been lying there thinking about it choosing the time to say it. Sarah knows I really want to do this, its like this will be the turning point, where Sarah gives me the gift of giving her pleasure while I am locked up. I feel that once Sarah allows me this it will be the breath that blows fire into those latent dominant embers. An acknowledgment of her sexual dominance.

Sarah came back without even thinking about it:

"You do not call the shots, I do" Well, not what I wanted but bloody close!!

Well, my turn to say "yes I guess you do, would you like a massage dear, was all I could muster, and in my mind saying my thanks to the higher powers for the firm cock in my cage"

The thing about this statement is that it is the first time Sarah has been outrightly dominant in a sexual connotation, there has been others as I have told you but this was quite explicitly sexual domination. I don't like to think I was topping from the bottom as it was merely a suggestion, but I guess since I have asked before on more than one occasion means I was pestering her. Well I was certainly put in my place!!

Well massage her I did, and no I did not attempt to go down on here, I was perfectly behaved and rubbed her back till she slept.

This morning Sarah phoned for some other reasons, and told me that she had found the keys...so tonight may or may not be interesting, she certainly is building my expectations, but she sure sounded happy, so yeah its tight just thinking about tonight.

I must try and not have too many expectations though. Ever being told how fucken good a movie is then u go see it and its like...well it wasn't that good?

There is certainly embers there, whats more they do seem to be developing. The real proof will be this cycle, if and when she gives me the keys, if she takes them back while she has her period, I have a feeling she won't, she will tell me to have a break, but I will offer them to her, I have told her I do not need a break, and I don't, and I really don't want a break (although this will change post orgasm...lol), right now I am not even sure if I want a orgasm, I do and I don't, a very strange feeling.

What I do need to feel though is Sarah's orgasm, her gift of ultimate intimacy, trouble is if it is given with my cock, then I am unlikely to be able to contain myself, I wonder if I could even if Sarah instructed me not to (though I think she is a way away from doing that, she still does not understand the point of that, yet if she reads the material she just might)

Sorry this is so prolific but I need to do some work now....

Moving it along.

I asked Sarah this week if she thought more or less of me because I liked wearing the cage for her. Sarah's initial response was that she did not think of me any differently, but then she paused and changed her mind and told me that she actually thought more of me.

I then asked her permission if I could in future wear it constantly, without a break (except when she released me of course) until such time as she asked me to stop, I told her that I did not need a break from it, even during her period, and that it made it harder for me to have a break than not have one.

This is true because I very quickly fall into old habits and then I have a very difficult time asking her or returning to the fold so to speak.

Sarah has agreed.

Sarah has also been showing dominant signs just recently, apart from what I told you about the web site, there has been a few things she has told me during these last week that has had my submissive fires burning, after the above conversation, a few nights later Sarah announced that she had "better make a list then" referring to tasks around the house, to which I agreed wholeheartedly.

But now along to the night of my release the other night. I didn't get what I deserved but I very nearly did.

I was feeling very much like I DESERVED a released, I really worked my guts out all day and I achieved everything Sarah had asked me two before cooking dinner for the family, I quite honestly wore myself out.

I have mentioned previously that this is where I really struggle, and libido reduction helps a tad but not much. If I feel like I deserve release I have a real internal fight on my hands. I know I shouldn't but I can't help what I feel despite telling myself that its got to be up to Sarah, that I don't decide when my release will be....anyway with that frame of mind I went to bed. I could feel my adrenaline pumping around my body, a anxiousness, I was worried that I would not be able to control myself.

On climbing into bed, Sarah was watching he shows on TV, and she instructed me to give her a massage, not asked, she told me to. Fine, mini contained erection, and I proceeded to patiently rub her back for about 30 minutes before she announced hse would go and use the bathroom.

Now I know that Sarah sometimes puts the key to my cage under her pillow if she is intending to release me so while she was in the bathroom I snuck a peak under her pillow, and imagine my relief when I saw it was there.....but....and there is a but

Sarah returned to the bedroom, and I told her I needed to check the locks downstairs, but while was downstairs I went into my office and tool a quarter of a viagra pill, because I wanted to make sure that it was a enjoyable for both of us, I felt assured of release (although not 100% because she has gotten the key out before and changed her mind). I then proceeded to check the front doors and return to the bedroom where I found Sarah still watching her show. All good need some time for the pill to do its job, I even ground it up in my teeth to fine powder which speeds its penetration, which tasted absolutely disgusting!!

Gez I am a desperate pathetic individual

So I climbed into bed and dutifully rubbed Sarahs back for the next 20 minutes feeling sure that she was going to tell me to go wash myself at any moment.

So imagine my surprise when she turns of the light and says or more states to me sternly.

" now you are going to rub my back until I go to sleep even if it takes you all night, and if you do go to sleep before me and start snoring I am going to wack you up the arse!!"

I was floored but I did say, well u can do that anyway if you want....lol...but she did not say anything, but her sheer act of dominance was enough to quiten any act of defiance or feeling that I deserved release.

But then I thought...CRAP...I have taken that viagra AND I am wearing that tight ring. I still do not have any night time arousals but I know from past experience that a little bit of viagra goes a very long way....so.....

The night began, I must have rubbed Sarahs back for about 2-3 hours, each time I thought she was asleep i would roll over and just about be asleep myself when I would hear....."I am NOT asleep yet", it did occur to make snoring noises to see if I could get that wack but I thought better of it.

Eventually in the very morning hours I could not resist suggesting that perhaps it might help her sleep if we had a cuddle "or something" and I began change the focus of my massaging to her so yummy butt, Sarah did not resist me so encouraged I began to become more ambitious, I did not get swatted, so I continued until she allowed me to bare her butt and I began to softly kiss it.

I was seriously hoping she would allow me to give her pleasure without any release for me, but her body language was such that she did not allow access for me,then Sarah said, you are if anything persistent and handed me the keys. To be honest I did not argue with her, or say at the time that she did not need to let me out. I told her that last time and was denied, however after I was cleaned up and returned to bed I said to her that it was still a large fantasy of mine to service her while I was locked up. Sarah did not respond to this but I suspect it may have been filed away.

I put on a condom as is my obligation following cage time for hygiene (and sensitivity reasons) and proceeded to have a very enjoyable session.

Interesting Sarah did not allow me to penetrate her for a long time and indeed I thought at one point she was not going to at all. She kept me right on the outside , and not did I seek entry enjoying that she was guiding me to her own pleasure. I even believe she has a mini climax before allowing me to continue to rub on the outside, very unusual for her because usually she has one and that is it, I began to think that Sarah was teasing me by not allowing me penetration, and this is absolutely her prerogative, so when she did direct my entry I had a very hard time controlling myself.

I did in fact end Up missreading her and I did climax before Sarah which really pissed me off, Sarah did not know because I was wearing a condom anyway and I managed to bring her off before there was any significant shrinkage, but it was annoying because I was trying so hard to stop it the orgasm I had can only be described as ruined.

As I say I got what I deserved most probably.

I rubbed Sarahs back for another hour before she told me that I had to work the next day and I should go to sleep. Luckily she found some sleeping tablets and so I felt I could relax, I was tempted to make snoring noises though and i chuckled to myself.

In the morning sure enough, I was sure as hell glad Sarah did let me out because the woody I woke up with was a woody of all woodies and I am not sure if I could have tolerated it if the cage had been on. It have would hurt like frig!!

I allowed myself the day for freedom, I did need it, the week of wearing the tight ring had left me a bit sore, but I am not sure if it was an excuse for me being able to have access to my penis for the day. i think I managed about 7 orgasms , and I was relieved to report that they were extremely intense and normal feeling every one of them, even if the old fella was a bit sore at the end of the day. I have offered to lock up straight after sex but Sarah is not interested and i have also asked her if she minds if I masturbate the following day, She does not have any issues with it, I have even told her about my excessive habit before, she was a bit shocked but she does not seem to worry her.

In fact, I only found out I was unusually high sex drive when we were dating. I could happily have 5 orgasms with Sarah without ever going soft and no rest. It was only after Sarah had been to the doctor about woman stuff and she told me her doctor had told her that I was a very unusual man...lol.

Unfortunately these days I could not manage anything like that, but with a bit of a respite between...well yeah,

Later on in the evening on arriving home from work I checked to see if Sarah had put the keys away again (she hadn't in the morning) and sure enough they had gone.

My freedom once again came to a close.

Following my day of freedom and subsequent relockup, I noticed in the morning my balls are swollen, not discoloured but swollen, big enough to pull the skin tighter than normal making it a bit more uncomfortable than usual. Punishment for the previous day perhaps? I think maybe next session I will give the tight ring a break, I dare not ask Sarah for the key to change it over, if she finds out I am uncomfortable she will probably call the game off.

That said she seems to be certainly heading down the dominant path, she might just say tuff!!

Sarah does have a lot of stuff on her mind presently, it will be interesting to where this leads when things quieten down a bit. We are going camping this weekend and I very much doubt I will be taking this cage off for this trip.