Moving it along.

I asked Sarah this week if she thought more or less of me because I liked wearing the cage for her. Sarah's initial response was that she did not think of me any differently, but then she paused and changed her mind and told me that she actually thought more of me.

I then asked her permission if I could in future wear it constantly, without a break (except when she released me of course) until such time as she asked me to stop, I told her that I did not need a break from it, even during her period, and that it made it harder for me to have a break than not have one.

This is true because I very quickly fall into old habits and then I have a very difficult time asking her or returning to the fold so to speak.

Sarah has agreed.

Sarah has also been showing dominant signs just recently, apart from what I told you about the web site, there has been a few things she has told me during these last week that has had my submissive fires burning, after the above conversation, a few nights later Sarah announced that she had "better make a list then" referring to tasks around the house, to which I agreed wholeheartedly.

But now along to the night of my release the other night. I didn't get what I deserved but I very nearly did.

I was feeling very much like I DESERVED a released, I really worked my guts out all day and I achieved everything Sarah had asked me two before cooking dinner for the family, I quite honestly wore myself out.

I have mentioned previously that this is where I really struggle, and libido reduction helps a tad but not much. If I feel like I deserve release I have a real internal fight on my hands. I know I shouldn't but I can't help what I feel despite telling myself that its got to be up to Sarah, that I don't decide when my release will be....anyway with that frame of mind I went to bed. I could feel my adrenaline pumping around my body, a anxiousness, I was worried that I would not be able to control myself.

On climbing into bed, Sarah was watching he shows on TV, and she instructed me to give her a massage, not asked, she told me to. Fine, mini contained erection, and I proceeded to patiently rub her back for about 30 minutes before she announced hse would go and use the bathroom.

Now I know that Sarah sometimes puts the key to my cage under her pillow if she is intending to release me so while she was in the bathroom I snuck a peak under her pillow, and imagine my relief when I saw it was there.....but....and there is a but

Sarah returned to the bedroom, and I told her I needed to check the locks downstairs, but while was downstairs I went into my office and tool a quarter of a viagra pill, because I wanted to make sure that it was a enjoyable for both of us, I felt assured of release (although not 100% because she has gotten the key out before and changed her mind). I then proceeded to check the front doors and return to the bedroom where I found Sarah still watching her show. All good need some time for the pill to do its job, I even ground it up in my teeth to fine powder which speeds its penetration, which tasted absolutely disgusting!!

Gez I am a desperate pathetic individual

So I climbed into bed and dutifully rubbed Sarahs back for the next 20 minutes feeling sure that she was going to tell me to go wash myself at any moment.

So imagine my surprise when she turns of the light and says or more states to me sternly.

" now you are going to rub my back until I go to sleep even if it takes you all night, and if you do go to sleep before me and start snoring I am going to wack you up the arse!!"

I was floored but I did say, well u can do that anyway if you want....lol...but she did not say anything, but her sheer act of dominance was enough to quiten any act of defiance or feeling that I deserved release.

But then I thought...CRAP...I have taken that viagra AND I am wearing that tight ring. I still do not have any night time arousals but I know from past experience that a little bit of viagra goes a very long way....so.....

The night began, I must have rubbed Sarahs back for about 2-3 hours, each time I thought she was asleep i would roll over and just about be asleep myself when I would hear....."I am NOT asleep yet", it did occur to make snoring noises to see if I could get that wack but I thought better of it.

Eventually in the very morning hours I could not resist suggesting that perhaps it might help her sleep if we had a cuddle "or something" and I began change the focus of my massaging to her so yummy butt, Sarah did not resist me so encouraged I began to become more ambitious, I did not get swatted, so I continued until she allowed me to bare her butt and I began to softly kiss it.

I was seriously hoping she would allow me to give her pleasure without any release for me, but her body language was such that she did not allow access for me,then Sarah said, you are if anything persistent and handed me the keys. To be honest I did not argue with her, or say at the time that she did not need to let me out. I told her that last time and was denied, however after I was cleaned up and returned to bed I said to her that it was still a large fantasy of mine to service her while I was locked up. Sarah did not respond to this but I suspect it may have been filed away.

I put on a condom as is my obligation following cage time for hygiene (and sensitivity reasons) and proceeded to have a very enjoyable session.

Interesting Sarah did not allow me to penetrate her for a long time and indeed I thought at one point she was not going to at all. She kept me right on the outside , and not did I seek entry enjoying that she was guiding me to her own pleasure. I even believe she has a mini climax before allowing me to continue to rub on the outside, very unusual for her because usually she has one and that is it, I began to think that Sarah was teasing me by not allowing me penetration, and this is absolutely her prerogative, so when she did direct my entry I had a very hard time controlling myself.

I did in fact end Up missreading her and I did climax before Sarah which really pissed me off, Sarah did not know because I was wearing a condom anyway and I managed to bring her off before there was any significant shrinkage, but it was annoying because I was trying so hard to stop it the orgasm I had can only be described as ruined.

As I say I got what I deserved most probably.

I rubbed Sarahs back for another hour before she told me that I had to work the next day and I should go to sleep. Luckily she found some sleeping tablets and so I felt I could relax, I was tempted to make snoring noises though and i chuckled to myself.

In the morning sure enough, I was sure as hell glad Sarah did let me out because the woody I woke up with was a woody of all woodies and I am not sure if I could have tolerated it if the cage had been on. It have would hurt like frig!!

I allowed myself the day for freedom, I did need it, the week of wearing the tight ring had left me a bit sore, but I am not sure if it was an excuse for me being able to have access to my penis for the day. i think I managed about 7 orgasms , and I was relieved to report that they were extremely intense and normal feeling every one of them, even if the old fella was a bit sore at the end of the day. I have offered to lock up straight after sex but Sarah is not interested and i have also asked her if she minds if I masturbate the following day, She does not have any issues with it, I have even told her about my excessive habit before, she was a bit shocked but she does not seem to worry her.

In fact, I only found out I was unusually high sex drive when we were dating. I could happily have 5 orgasms with Sarah without ever going soft and no rest. It was only after Sarah had been to the doctor about woman stuff and she told me her doctor had told her that I was a very unusual man...lol.

Unfortunately these days I could not manage anything like that, but with a bit of a respite between...well yeah,

Later on in the evening on arriving home from work I checked to see if Sarah had put the keys away again (she hadn't in the morning) and sure enough they had gone.

My freedom once again came to a close.

Following my day of freedom and subsequent relockup, I noticed in the morning my balls are swollen, not discoloured but swollen, big enough to pull the skin tighter than normal making it a bit more uncomfortable than usual. Punishment for the previous day perhaps? I think maybe next session I will give the tight ring a break, I dare not ask Sarah for the key to change it over, if she finds out I am uncomfortable she will probably call the game off.

That said she seems to be certainly heading down the dominant path, she might just say tuff!!

Sarah does have a lot of stuff on her mind presently, it will be interesting to where this leads when things quieten down a bit. We are going camping this weekend and I very much doubt I will be taking this cage off for this trip.