And on.
Update on the proscar, morning erections seem to be resurrecting themselves as the cage is waking me in the mornings sometimes these days. Not nearly as rampant as before but they are definitely there.
At the same time I have decided its time to shed some of the weight I have put on over the last few years and have joined the local gym. its quite amazing how quickly fitness can return and I have managed to loose a whopping 3.5KGs in 3 weeks! which is roughly a kilo per week. I guess thats what running 4Kms per day will do. I have never been obese but my tummy was definitely becoming noticeable to the point where I did need to lean forward to see ones cock...I have also cut down my alcohol consumption to hmmm about 3 glasses of wine per night...
I would really like to move to the number 4 ring on the CB6000 but while I can tolerate it a few days, I actually find that my whimpering night time arousal become painful hardons because the number 4 ring is quite tight even when completely flaccid and so it acts like a cockring making hardons really hard and difficult to get rid of, its not too tight when flaccid though, its comfortable enough as long as one is careful not to allow the skin to bunch or fold onto itself which is quite tough with this small ring. Anyone that has ever worn a chastity belt know that folded skin under the ring, while it does not hurt initially, it can suddenly become REALLY painful, so wearing the smaller ring means a lot more adjustments during the day. The nice thing about the number 4 ring is it is impossible to escape from, no way I could pull out of it, and during the day it is quite comfortable...but night time eeeck, It would be really great if there was a ring in between the 4 and 3 ring, there seems to be a huge difference in size between the 2.
Sarah ha settled into the cage wearing, this time at least she seems to be embracing it, even agreeing I should wear it during her period, I think it has finally dawned on her why and how my sexuality works....and why cage wearing is a good thing for her/us and all concerned. Its kinda scary as well because I am not sure if I want to be wearing a plastic cage for the rest of my life...at the same time I miss it when its not there...how strange....why would anyone wish to wear a plastic sock on their cock....and miss the ability to stroke at will, yet want to not be able to stroke at will....the conundrum still makes no sense and yet cage wearing seems to be ever increasing in popularity.
It has gone beyond kink, although I still wish there was more of that...I wish Sarah would take advantage of my situation more.
Saturday, May 30, 2009
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
The spark of a dominance
Its hard to write sometime, but a few things have happened recently that leads me to make some comments once again.
Sarah and I had a break from the cage for a little while, but only for a few weeks, Sarah did not actually ask me to start wearing it again but she did not hesitate to participate once I offered. These days she is making sure she hides the keys from me big time.
Sarah has been a bit stressed lately because one of our sons hair is beginning to thin out, for me I do not have much hair left at all these days but it was not really noticeable until my mid 20s, only a mother would have noticed my sons hair but she has had him around to see all sorts of specialists.
The alarming thing is that a few of the doctors are recommending propecia, some are saying he is still two young but others are saying he isn't. Now for the uneducated propecia is actually finasteride which is what I was taking myself a year ago in conjunction with andocure because I had read that it can help reduce libido. Andocure which reduces the amount of overall testosterone I found made me feel old and depressed and in some respects increased my needyness on Sarah, when I decided I could not deal with the side effects I weaned myself off and tried mixing a bit of propecia. The results were quick and devastating. Almost total elimination of sexual function. Very difficult to get an erection, no ejaculate and orgasms just were not worth it....not good...
I am trying to cut this short, after this result I ended up discontinuing both and eventually my system has returned to normal (pretty much) but not after I had done a lot of reading and discovered some real horror stories about propecia/finasteride side effects on its own. So I had some real concerns about giving such a drug to my son for hair loss.
In the end I told Sarah about my previous experience, I decided to tell her everything about what i had done (including basically chemically castrating myself and my reasons), and then proceed to tell her that before I allowed my son to take this drug that I had been taking it (by itself ie not mixed with andocur) this time to see if I suffer any ill effects, I suspected the last time I had taken the propecia the reason I had such a dramatic impact on my sexual function/ability and everything else is because of a interaction between the two drugs.
So now I have been taking propecia for 2-3 weeks.
For the first few weeks it just made me feel a little tired. But alarmingly for the last week I have not had ANY nocturnal erections. For those cage wearers out there, this might be a pretty good deal....grow your hair back and no more nightly wake up calls from the cage. What I am worried about is what comes next. Will it go to the same extent as before? Nocturnal erections are a normal part of every mans life, from my understanding it is what helps to "grow" a penis into reaching its full potential. Now interestingly if I were not wearing a cock cage I would not really KNOW just how many errections one has during the night. Normally I would be woken 4-5 separate occasions during the night. now zero, nothing, not even tight?? Just from propecia, normal dose, nothing stupid....maybe Sarah knowing about the other drug is lacing my food????(she would never do that)
Anyway the point is that I can't allow my son to take this drug knowing what the effect it is having on me? or at the very least I have to explain my experience....right now though if its JUST the loss of night time erections then thats actually good (when your wearing a cage...lol). I will keep taking it longer term to make sure nothing else happens.
hmmmm
Well the title was a spark of dominance....
Last nigh represented the 7th night of no release from the cage.
Sarah told me I was to take off the cage and massage her back, I was to wear a condom but not attempt to have sex, I was allowed to come, in fact she told me to. Then she TOLD me I was to put the cage back on in the morning, not once but made sure I knew by telling me twice. She told me that if I was lucky she might release me again tomorrow night in order to allow me to give her a orgasm but that was subject to her being in the mood. Now of course I have no need for release...so I wish she would let me have the honor of just giving her a orgasm.
Did it feel normal...I always have trouble self gratifying myself using Sarah's body when she is not in the mood , even though rubbing against Sarahs bottom is heaven, the orgasm felt normal I think...maybe not as intense but that could because Sarah was simply releasing me...I will know more when Sarah does actually get in the mood...when that will be I don't know...but I know I am craving giving her a orgasm....She does know that is what I really need....I have told her many times that I do not really need one myself but in order for me to feel complete as a man I need to give her one...., but last night she told I should orgasm for "health" reasons. At least she is thinking of me :)
Sarah and I had a break from the cage for a little while, but only for a few weeks, Sarah did not actually ask me to start wearing it again but she did not hesitate to participate once I offered. These days she is making sure she hides the keys from me big time.
Sarah has been a bit stressed lately because one of our sons hair is beginning to thin out, for me I do not have much hair left at all these days but it was not really noticeable until my mid 20s, only a mother would have noticed my sons hair but she has had him around to see all sorts of specialists.
The alarming thing is that a few of the doctors are recommending propecia, some are saying he is still two young but others are saying he isn't. Now for the uneducated propecia is actually finasteride which is what I was taking myself a year ago in conjunction with andocure because I had read that it can help reduce libido. Andocure which reduces the amount of overall testosterone I found made me feel old and depressed and in some respects increased my needyness on Sarah, when I decided I could not deal with the side effects I weaned myself off and tried mixing a bit of propecia. The results were quick and devastating. Almost total elimination of sexual function. Very difficult to get an erection, no ejaculate and orgasms just were not worth it....not good...
I am trying to cut this short, after this result I ended up discontinuing both and eventually my system has returned to normal (pretty much) but not after I had done a lot of reading and discovered some real horror stories about propecia/finasteride side effects on its own. So I had some real concerns about giving such a drug to my son for hair loss.
In the end I told Sarah about my previous experience, I decided to tell her everything about what i had done (including basically chemically castrating myself and my reasons), and then proceed to tell her that before I allowed my son to take this drug that I had been taking it (by itself ie not mixed with andocur) this time to see if I suffer any ill effects, I suspected the last time I had taken the propecia the reason I had such a dramatic impact on my sexual function/ability and everything else is because of a interaction between the two drugs.
So now I have been taking propecia for 2-3 weeks.
For the first few weeks it just made me feel a little tired. But alarmingly for the last week I have not had ANY nocturnal erections. For those cage wearers out there, this might be a pretty good deal....grow your hair back and no more nightly wake up calls from the cage. What I am worried about is what comes next. Will it go to the same extent as before? Nocturnal erections are a normal part of every mans life, from my understanding it is what helps to "grow" a penis into reaching its full potential. Now interestingly if I were not wearing a cock cage I would not really KNOW just how many errections one has during the night. Normally I would be woken 4-5 separate occasions during the night. now zero, nothing, not even tight?? Just from propecia, normal dose, nothing stupid....maybe Sarah knowing about the other drug is lacing my food????(she would never do that)
Anyway the point is that I can't allow my son to take this drug knowing what the effect it is having on me? or at the very least I have to explain my experience....right now though if its JUST the loss of night time erections then thats actually good (when your wearing a cage...lol). I will keep taking it longer term to make sure nothing else happens.
hmmmm
Well the title was a spark of dominance....
Last nigh represented the 7th night of no release from the cage.
Sarah told me I was to take off the cage and massage her back, I was to wear a condom but not attempt to have sex, I was allowed to come, in fact she told me to. Then she TOLD me I was to put the cage back on in the morning, not once but made sure I knew by telling me twice. She told me that if I was lucky she might release me again tomorrow night in order to allow me to give her a orgasm but that was subject to her being in the mood. Now of course I have no need for release...so I wish she would let me have the honor of just giving her a orgasm.
Did it feel normal...I always have trouble self gratifying myself using Sarah's body when she is not in the mood , even though rubbing against Sarahs bottom is heaven, the orgasm felt normal I think...maybe not as intense but that could because Sarah was simply releasing me...I will know more when Sarah does actually get in the mood...when that will be I don't know...but I know I am craving giving her a orgasm....She does know that is what I really need....I have told her many times that I do not really need one myself but in order for me to feel complete as a man I need to give her one...., but last night she told I should orgasm for "health" reasons. At least she is thinking of me :)
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