The spark of a dominance

Its hard to write sometime, but a few things have happened recently that leads me to make some comments once again.

Sarah and I had a break from the cage for a little while, but only for a few weeks, Sarah did not actually ask me to start wearing it again but she did not hesitate to participate once I offered. These days she is making sure she hides the keys from me big time.

Sarah has been a bit stressed lately because one of our sons hair is beginning to thin out, for me I do not have much hair left at all these days but it was not really noticeable until my mid 20s, only a mother would have noticed my sons hair but she has had him around to see all sorts of specialists.

The alarming thing is that a few of the doctors are recommending propecia, some are saying he is still two young but others are saying he isn't. Now for the uneducated propecia is actually finasteride which is what I was taking myself a year ago in conjunction with andocure because I had read that it can help reduce libido. Andocure which reduces the amount of overall testosterone I found made me feel old and depressed and in some respects increased my needyness on Sarah, when I decided I could not deal with the side effects I weaned myself off and tried mixing a bit of propecia. The results were quick and devastating. Almost total elimination of sexual function. Very difficult to get an erection, no ejaculate and orgasms just were not worth it....not good...

I am trying to cut this short, after this result I ended up discontinuing both and eventually my system has returned to normal (pretty much) but not after I had done a lot of reading and discovered some real horror stories about propecia/finasteride side effects on its own. So I had some real concerns about giving such a drug to my son for hair loss.

In the end I told Sarah about my previous experience, I decided to tell her everything about what i had done (including basically chemically castrating myself and my reasons), and then proceed to tell her that before I allowed my son to take this drug that I had been taking it (by itself ie not mixed with andocur) this time to see if I suffer any ill effects, I suspected the last time I had taken the propecia the reason I had such a dramatic impact on my sexual function/ability and everything else is because of a interaction between the two drugs.

So now I have been taking propecia for 2-3 weeks.

For the first few weeks it just made me feel a little tired. But alarmingly for the last week I have not had ANY nocturnal erections. For those cage wearers out there, this might be a pretty good deal....grow your hair back and no more nightly wake up calls from the cage. What I am worried about is what comes next. Will it go to the same extent as before? Nocturnal erections are a normal part of every mans life, from my understanding it is what helps to "grow" a penis into reaching its full potential. Now interestingly if I were not wearing a cock cage I would not really KNOW just how many errections one has during the night. Normally I would be woken 4-5 separate occasions during the night. now zero, nothing, not even tight?? Just from propecia, normal dose, nothing stupid....maybe Sarah knowing about the other drug is lacing my food????(she would never do that)

Anyway the point is that I can't allow my son to take this drug knowing what the effect it is having on me? or at the very least I have to explain my experience....right now though if its JUST the loss of night time erections then thats actually good (when your wearing a cage...lol). I will keep taking it longer term to make sure nothing else happens.

hmmmm

Well the title was a spark of dominance....

Last nigh represented the 7th night of no release from the cage.

Sarah told me I was to take off the cage and massage her back, I was to wear a condom but not attempt to have sex, I was allowed to come, in fact she told me to. Then she TOLD me I was to put the cage back on in the morning, not once but made sure I knew by telling me twice. She told me that if I was lucky she might release me again tomorrow night in order to allow me to give her a orgasm but that was subject to her being in the mood. Now of course I have no need for release...so I wish she would let me have the honor of just giving her a orgasm.

Did it feel normal...I always have trouble self gratifying myself using Sarah's body when she is not in the mood , even though rubbing against Sarahs bottom is heaven, the orgasm felt normal I think...maybe not as intense but that could because Sarah was simply releasing me...I will know more when Sarah does actually get in the mood...when that will be I don't know...but I know I am craving giving her a orgasm....She does know that is what I really need....I have told her many times that I do not really need one myself but in order for me to feel complete as a man I need to give her one...., but last night she told I should orgasm for "health" reasons. At least she is thinking of me :)