Testing Week Ahead

I must admit it’s a bit of a struggle today. In my first entry I mentioned that recently I have been using the CB device quite a lot recently. The truth of it is that I have been in it more often then out of it the last few months.

These last 15 days I have only been out of it for 24 hours where my wife and I engaged in some pretty decent lurve makin. The fact is using a device like this can really improve your sex life, and in my case I believe it does improve the relationship with my wife as well. In addition since showing my wife the “around her finger” website, I have even been rewarded with “I love you” a few times, which really means a lot to me and helps deal with the frustration and the ongoing arousal and frustration the cage produces.

Why is it such a struggle today? Well, I have been in it now for 7 night since that really nice session, and just when I was beginning to hope for a release my wife announced to me that its “that time of the month”. Pretty hard when your hopes are dashed and are faced with at the very least another 5-7 days trapped in the device. I was half expecting her to release me for my own pleasure last night however that did not happen.

Be that as it may, the fact is Sarah seems to be much happier and relaxed when I am caged. A few months back we were going through a bit of a rough patch, sex was going bad, and we were arguing. It happened to coincide with my inability to bring myself to put the cage back on. It’s a great fantasy to wear a cb but the reality of it day to day…well put it this way it’s a lot less appealing after one has pleased themselves.

I am coming to a conclusion that self pleasuring has a lot to answer for. When it comes to a marriage, excessive use of my favorite toy has probably not helped my attitude to her. Its kind like “fuck u very much” every time I feel like it. I will say this however, simply abstaining from self pleasuring is NOT the same as wearing a CB, Wearing the CB is a symbol of my commitment to my wife, and I think she sees value in that. It’s a pretty good wedding ring!!!

She rewards me with being uncharacteristically patient with my failings, and being basically in a good mood ….this week even during her PMT!! Not only is it a symbol for her, wearing it actually arousing. You can feel it like a gloved hand every minute of the day. It is not uncomfortable, ever, except for at about 3.30AM every morning when a nocturnal woody wakes me and I have to stand up until it subsides. But day to day its like my wife hand gives me a stroke every time I think of her.

The feeling is really blissful, but there is really a rollercoaster ride of emotion, from frustration, even resentment through to the constant pleasurable arousal. Sometimes I wonder if it is worth it, the sacrifice is larger than I let on to her, but it is great to see a spark of affection in her eyes, which for so long has been completely absent. I do wish she would acknowledge/and or tease me, literally increase the sexual energy without sex, this would encourage my feelings of devotion to her. Indifference is certainly a submissive killer.

After showing her Around her finger, I can’t think of a better symbol of submission than wearing a cage. It seems I will be wearing it for some time to come. I have just paid for and downloaded the book. Read it cover to cover. I think things are developing by themselves for the minute. Sarah seems to like the control, I may yet show this book to her. She has tried (after reading the intro on the website) telling me a few times to do things around the house, each time she has used the voice it has sent tingles through me of arousal. It’s a far cry from the normal mode of winging and nagging that just gets me wound up!!! I hope this positive response from me encourages her to take things further.

There is definitely something to this.